So here's the deal: I really want to keep drawing, but I just don't have the inspiration/motivation. I'm no good at it; why work so hard at something I can't even be proud of? Sometimes I love drawing, but it sucks way more out of me than it gives back by the time I finish a piece. My art is uninteresting, inadequate, and unattractive. Why bother? I should be better. My hours of hard work should have relinquished much more than boring environments and stiff, poorly-drawn characters.

I just want to cry.

This is the first time I've seriously considered stopping. My heart's not in it like it used to be. I feel like I should work at things I'm good at, like writing--especially since I'm probably going to be an English major and go into editing.

What do you think? Should I keep trying, or just move on? Any advice on coming out of art blocks?

'Cause I just don't know right now.

Hey, guys. Sorry for the inactivity...I'm kinda back now, but I can't make any guarantees as to how long it'll last. XD As you probably noticed, I submitted a devID (yeah, after 4 years, I finally put up an ID), and also a new picture.

I still don't have a job; I'm going on a trip to Virginia at the end of October and will be staying five nights. Since missing five-six days of a brand-new job wouldn't be a good idea, I'll be getting one after that--and my dad will make me, so I really have no choice. Hopefully it'll be a tolerable job. But...NO SCHOOL FOR ME! 8D I so don't miss it.

There's not really much else to say right now. I'm hoping to get more art done soon, but since inspiration's been pretty sporadic lately, who knows if it'll happen. If my motivation stays put for a while, I may re-open requests and trades.

God bless.

Yeah...I haven't been active. |D What to do? I just don't feel much in the art-making mood. I'm sure the inspiration will come back eventually, though--it always has before.

I figured I should update this, anyhow. I went to Washington, D.C. which was a lot of fun. If you ever get the chance to visit D.C., go see the National Cathedral. It is spectacular, stunning, impressive...I loved it. I also went on a little trip to the beach with my friends from school and had an amazing time. 8D

In other news, I have my license now. I know, a little old to just be starting out, yeah? I never really felt the need to get it early. After all, the process is easier once you're 18; there aren't any curfews or restrictions. It's very cool to be that little bit more independent now.

After summer I'll be getting a job, not going straight to college. I plan to save up some money, probably buy a used car, and go to school next fall. Admittedly, I dread the thought of more school, but maybe this break is what I need and I'll be ready to go back afterward. I hope I will.

So my summer's been really great so far. I've been having a good time, enjoying myself. Very relaxing. =]

Anything exciting happening with the rest of you?

I think I'm back!

Updates? My neice is seven months old now. <3 I'm graduating on the 27th. I got contacts today, woo! I have a boyfriend named Henry.

And yeah. I'm slowly getting through the 1,365 deviations in my inbox. It was at 1,800-something yesterday. o_o

How's everyone doing, eh? Miss me?

I probably won't be around much until I'm feeling more artisitc. Very annoying how inspiration can be so sporadic. It's not conducive to creating art. xD

My birthday was yestday. I'm eighteen now. I went to the mall with my mom and bought some nice clothes. 8D It's weird to think I'm legally an adult. o_o

I'll probably buy another sub once I'm back on the scene. Unless, of course, someone would like to buy one for me.

Hope you're all well. <3 I'll check my account every now and then, but don't expect much activity for the time being.